Are you still a Zimbabwean - My ambassador asked me

After talking to my ambassador, I am left wondering who exactly should be a Zimbabwean? 

Her: Are you still a Zimbabwean?

Me: Yes, I am a Zimbabwean. But an angry one.

Her: Sei muchidaro vakomana kutuka president? (Why do you swear at the president?) [She was referring to the story titled Who Needs Experience To Ruin A Country on this blog]

Me: Kutuka President? Handina kuvatuka but I expressed my feelings. That's how I feel.

Her: Ndaifunga kuti you are a principled man. (I thought you are a principled man) Ndakakufonera hauna kudaira foni yako. (I called you but you did not pick my calls.)

Me: I ignored your calls because I wanted to avoid this kind of discussion. As for principles. That is what I am. I believe in every word I say and said.

Her: Hamutuke varidzi yenyika yamugere.

Me: I only made reference. An example of how Namibia can be if they do not learn from Zimbabwe.

Her: Hamudaro vakomana. (You should not do that kind of thing.)

Me: But ambassador are you happy with our situation? Have you driven past boys from Zimbabwe who walk on foot selling caps and brooms ...

Her: I talk to those boys. Vanondiudza kuti ambassador tiri kuvaka dzimba kumusha...

Me: So they are happy walking in the sun, selling brooms and going hungry. They love being jeered at and staying in a shack?

Her: If you have a problem you can always call me. Ngatitaure about it kwete kutuka president. Zvakaipa vakomana. (Let's talk about it but do not swear at the president. It's bad, guys.)

I did not ask her whether she has done anything for the Zimbabwean women who run battles with the City Police; who are arrested for illegal vending; who leave their families and husbands to sell not only cheap Chinese stuff but their bodies too.

I did not ask her what she has done for many others who are languishing in Namibian jails today because they overstayed and cannot pay R4 000. I did not ask her if she has visited any one of those people – one of whom lost her baby because of the harsh prison conditions.

I did not tell her that I came to Namibia not for Robert Mugabe or Zanu PF but because of Robert Mugabe and Zanu PF. I did not tell her that I am not one to defend Zanu PF corruption and misgovernance and theft.

I did not tell her that as an ambassador, Zimbabweans unlike other nationals in Namibia are a divided lot. While Angolans, Kenyans, Congolese, Nigerians and Zambians meet as one nation, Zimbabweans here meet as Zanu PF and MDC.

I know of Zimbabweans who have been mistreated at the embassy just because they were suspected to be anti-Zanu PF.

I am sure, I have become one of those people who can never approach the embassy – MY EMBASSY – for anything simply because I expressed my anger with Zanu PF.

Nxaaaa.